Recently I woke up feeling vulnerable and I decided that the most loving action I could take was to stay there. I couldn’t figure out what was going on. I just felt off. Then life began flooding in. With all of the happenings in the world and the daily living. Where’s the masks, are they clean? I can’t breathe when I wear that kind. Time for appointments. How are they cleaning? What are the processes? Can my friend come in with me? No?
What does living look like and what is the risk to participate?
I have found that when overwhelm appears and when I am feeling a bit shaky. The best thing for me to do is to stay there. Trying to force my way out of these feelings is false and untrue. This actually causes more stress. So what I have done is I stay there. I try to be with it. I don’t try to spiritualize it.
Here is what I do in these times.
- I tried to find something enjoyable to eat, play, or do.
- I rest. Gracefully understanding that peace heals.
- I try to gather my thoughts before I talk to others.
- I engage in positive conversations or conversations that are constructive.
- I clean out my house. The physical work helps relieve the clutter in my mind.
- I write one line stories designed to challenge and change the narratives. (more in a separate post)
- I walk Priya, my dog, for joy and not to workout,
- I sit in the sunlight.
- I watch movies of romance, travel and laughter.
- I try my best to love the skin I am in at this moment.
This is my list. What’s yours?
Loving yourself totally and completely allows space for the times we are anxious. I have had to tell myself it’s okay to be scared or feeling like there’s no way out. Normal, natural thoughts and feelings without the blame, shame or self inflicted battering. This can be a time of self discovery and growth. You have to love yourself through and not rush, even when the world is trying to create urgency and importance.
Finally I ask, “Am I ever really in control?”
Yesterday, I was able to move forward. Big giant leaps on one project. Facing life in two areas. I was in the Flow and things got easier. The same challenges were present. The same fears were present. I was now able to stand in my Centering and BE in a more spirituality aligned Presence.
During these time of deep uncertainty. What I have always practiced and believed is still valid. Principle is Source, unchanging.
May you know the Divine Intimately.
Namaste.
