Is this urgency real or is it part of the human nature of contrived importance?
I remember being sick. Really sick! Everything that was being presented to me was an emergency. Nine days in the hospital. Initially, I had to be stabilized. Around day three, the medical professionals were trying to figure out what was going on. I wasn’t, in their minds understanding the severity of my situation. I did. I was listening for my Guidance. The nurses and doctors didn’t know what to do with me because I would say something like, “I’ll think about it.” What I really meant was I will breathe on it or pray on it or come into Peace about it. Sometimes I felt like I was being pushed to a path of, “this is just the way it is done.” However, I knew I wasn’t going to follow the norm, I hadn’t for most of my life, why would I now? It is amazing how time would begin to slow down.
Understand, that there is prudence, safety, discernment and consequences for each decision. I just wanted to feel like I had some contribution into how my care was being conducted. I wanted The Power to be In The Power. I had to evaluate whether I was willing to accept the consequences of my decisions and actions.When I was able to come into my Power I felt Peace.
So weak at one point I couldn’t lift my arm or walk to the bathroom without supervision, somehow my mind/heart knew that if I was in fact truly dying, I wanted to go IN GOD, MY WAY. Yes, I understand it is cancer. Yes, I understand that I was in crisis. Yes, I understand that chemo is standard. Yes I understand that surgery was probable. This is why it is so important to have your Crew. They knew that I would not want a chemo port, surgery or the “usual” plan. I could say, “No.” They could finish the conversation.
It is important that you make your wishes known to someone. Pray with someone. Care and extend compassion to someone. In times of false urgency or system created urgency, it is undeniable how valuable it is to feel your heart through peace rather than fear. Is this urgency real? Breathe into Peace. Breathe into your High Consciousness. Come into the Knowing of your High Source. Make sure that people have what they need to act on your behalf. Know that in a “real” now life threatening emergency they are going to preserve Life first. I am talking about the times when you first get the diagnosis and there are so many decisions. Or, when you considering surgery or non surgical options.
As Life happens we come into Circle and allow the frequencies of Love and Compassion to become present.
Be There. Decide from There.
May You Know The Divine Intimately
Namaste.
**** See the disclaimers. These were my choices. Make yours with discretion and with care. You are responsible.
