Grief is a space of vulnerability and humility.
There was a rambunctious 9-month old German shepherd puppy available at the animal shelter.
I had lost my Bella Qi just a few weeks before my diagnosis. She was my companion, my friend,
my soulmate. Now, for the first time in a long time, I’m considering not living alone again.
I found myself taking inventory.
Can I bend over?
Can I hold him when he pulls?
Do I have the energy to do this every day?
What if….
Getting a dog is somewhat impractical for right now.
These questions were totally irrelevant. At least, in this moment,
The next morning I felt heavy.
I woke up grieving my health.
The took it for granted health
Ate whatever I wanted health
The do whatever Health.
Grief. It is a heart centered connection that often lies buried deep.
When the inexplicable surfaces, a reaction, tears, frustration or anger it maybe grief in disguise.
Grief is a space of vulnerability and humility. I could feel something was heavy in my heart. I was crying.
I did not know what it was. Then, I realized I was grieving my good health.
Health before cancer. This hasn’t happened often but it was happening today.
Today was a day for me to be kind to myself and realize everything that I have accomplished.
I AM Accomplished and I AM Alive.
This is The Spirituality of Cancer
